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Nov 18, 2022
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Why God Would

Have to Erase You Too

When I was in high school, before I was a Christian, I had many questions that made me doubt the existence of God. Don't get me wrong, I still have questions that come up, 3 years later, but now I am better equipped to handle those thoughts. I remember one night, my mom asked my former step dad questions about God. It seemed like it was aimed to find the Achilles heel, the part that didn't make sense about Christianity.

I've learned now that although questions will come and go, faith is a concept that steps in when our minds know that we do not know. Faith explains that we do not always get to see it to believe it, like when Jesus roamed the earth performing miracles to witness in the flesh. But rather sometimes us believers must believe it in order to see it. Faith is defined in Hebrews 11:1.

Back then, I did not understand this concept of faith, but I did know that I believed in something. I had so many questions for God, including the ones that my mother would antagonize my father with. Oftentimes, he would not have the answers to her riddling inquiries, and I was left to think there was no explanation. I remember one night specifically, I overheard my mom ask the question, "If God is real, why does he let bad things happen? Why wouldn't he stop bad things from happening if he is good and powerful?" I remember the conversation left unanswered, after the first explanation was investigated and further picked apart. I found myself left with the same puzzling question. Amongst all my doubts and thoughts that didn't make sense, I had faith, before even knowing what it was.

One night, a year or so later, I attended a youth service with my friend. I didn't know that this service would bring my very first revelation, and a small piece of a much larger puzzle would be completed. To my surprise, the female teacher brought up the same doubt that had left me confused for quite some time. "Why does God let bad things happen?" She drew on a whiteboard with a black marker. She said, "if God were to erase all of the bad things, the bad people, the ones who have caused hurt. If God were to just erase all sin, she spoke as she erased a person on the board, then God would have to erase me too" A lightbulb came over my head.

It's Me. Hi. I'm the Problem it's Me -Taylor Swift

Taylor Swift said, in her new song, AntiHero: "It's me. Hi. Im the problem it's me." This is the title of this post, not only because it's funny, but because it is accurate. Us as christians must learn that sometimes, we are the problem. It is a hard pill to swallow, especially when you are given a title, a position of authority in church, or in life. It is easy to think that you are beyond being in the wrong. But sometimes, we are the root of someone else's hurt. It was us who should have been erased on that whiteboard.

As christians, we are representations of Jesus Christ. For some, we are the only bible they will ever read. It can be so easy to blame the other person, or blame the situation, but in reality, we will all cause hurt at some point or another. Hurt coming from a christian and the church is inevitable, since we are still human. But the consequences can be detrimental. Church hurt, causes division amongst Christians, and can even separate followers or new followers from Jesus Christ. It is so important to remember that we must show God in all we do, and not let pride blind us to thinking we are holier than thou.

The next post will explore further in depth:

- The Major Types of Church Hurt

- How To Prevent Spreading Church Hurt

- How To Fix Church Hurt

- How To Heal From Church Hurt